It’s strange. I feel the greatest gratitude at the lowest point of life.November, 2020 A few days ago, after my morning meditation, I cried. Well, I’m a cry baby, but I’m not crying while I’m happy. It’s a signal for sadness, anger, or pain. I was wondering what a happy tear tasted like until that... Continue Reading →
The Keys of Happiness from My Mom
I have an unusual mom which is very open-minded and fun. She is almost always happy, she claims her tears only fall for a Korean drama. Nothing so special about her life yet it is perfect for her, she wishes nothing more than what she has. At 50, she still has hangout friends, adores BTS... Continue Reading →
Kindness, no return guaranteed
Aside from jokes, I valued deep conversations that enlightened the heart and mind, those are rare but it feels like recharging the soul. A few weeks ago, I had a very good dining table conversation. A friend asked me to play a short movie. The last time I acted was in college, despite some shyness... Continue Reading →
A Small Habit that Saves Me: Meditation
There are things you can’t change which you need to accept and those you can. Some people always find an excuse to not change what they actually can, “This is me, I was born like this”. Bullshit. You can change anything in you if you want. Include what within your heart and those inside your... Continue Reading →
Live like it is a joke
“Every time you’re able to find some humor in a difficult situation, you win.” For me, the best way to spend time is with good conversations, the type of discussion that either enlightens knowledge or heart. And, the time we spend laughing. I was raised with a happy and funny mom, laughing is the culture... Continue Reading →
Being a woman in the society
Being a woman in society is already hard. I don’t understand why we still need to incriminate other women? I don’t want to talk about this, but after reading my friend’s instastory, I feel compelled to write about it. A few weeks ago, I got a dm on Instagram, a hateful word. I replied, “Sorry... Continue Reading →
A friend to my self
My mom and some of my inner friends said I'm too hard on myself. Years back, I didn't realize it. Instead, I told them that I think I'm not working hard enough, therefore, I felt left behind, not satisfied with the achievement. I was born a dreamer. I remember my first dream when I was... Continue Reading →
The stages of life
Recently I had a problem. And it’s quite hard for me. I cried and cried. I felt tired of life. I have a kitten heart, easy cry, easy laugh, and feel deeper than most people. But I would say I have a strong foundation. Mom raised me to be a tough woman. She teaches responsibility... Continue Reading →
Life is not a beauty pageant
Let me tell you a story… I should have been born as a boy. Mom prepared the name ‘Yudhistira’ taken from Javanese legend. He is the firstborn of Pandawa, the wise, honest, and forgiving one. But unfortunately, I was born as a girl, so she cut some words from the name. When I was a... Continue Reading →
Rebuild Self-Worth
"Self-worth is recognizing ‘I am greater than all of those things.’ It is a deep knowing that I am of value, that I am loveable, necessary to this life, and of incomprehensible worth.” Dr. Christina Hibbert Due to certain circumstances, a few years ago unfortunately I lost the sense of self-worth. And there was a... Continue Reading →
