You can never control who you fall in love with, even when you're in the saddest, confused time of your life. You don't fall in love with people because they're fun. It just happens. Kirsten Dunst Yes Ms Dunst, you right. But remember, at least we can decide who we will jump to a relationship... Continue Reading →

You know what more painful than losing the one that you love? Losing yourself.  Yesterday, I talked with an old friend. The conversation turned deep. I discovered that she has similar struggle with me, losing self. I didn't realize when it began, the process ate my soul piece by piece till i didn’t who i’m... Continue Reading →

“We are shaped by our thoughts, we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves” - Buddha We are busy to changes our external factors for the sake of happiness. Appearance, luxury brand, fancy holiday, affection from others, social acceptance, and all of those factors that... Continue Reading →

Have you ever worried about your future? Me? Always.Since i was child i already have clear plan about my life. In the age of 7 i already knew the purpose of my life. Being happy. I though i was lucky, my plan works well, easily. I work so fucking hard to ensure my life. But... Continue Reading →

This began at my very first vertigo. A month ago, I woke up in the middle of the night. Suddenly everything rotated. It was very painful. I didn’t know what to do. Living alone and has no one to help. For two hours, I cried. For the first time,  I can't control my body. I... Continue Reading →

I was grow up believe in, what Ted called, fix mindset. Human born with unique self, including their strength and weakness. A fish will never able to fly. This uniquness i was believe create by two main factors. Gen and our golden age's enviroment. Gen is a fix thing, unless we can bargain to The... Continue Reading →

"So what do you think about me, Disti?"Well, i'm not good at math, i sometimes even can't calculated how much money that i spent. But that question is harder than 5x-8yz*β for me. Why?Believe me i don't have dyslexia, i can correctly spell many of adjactive words. Alexithymia? Of course not. I express what i... Continue Reading →

Media make you never feel enough about your self - anonimSetiap orang punya persepsi yg berbeda akan suatu hal. Tentu saja. Karena otak adanya di kepala tiap masing masing individu. Tapi beberapa hal di dunia dianggap sebagai sebuah kebenaran karena adanya kontruksi sosial. Padahal kebenaran sejati tidak ada. Yang ada hanya kebenaran yg dianggap benar... Continue Reading →

She asked, "why he never replied me?". Why you still asking? For sure, obvious. You have no self worth!", i said.Sad but true, society treat women as a doll with price tag. Your face, skin, hair, and body define your price. You don't agree with it? So do i. But the only way to not... Continue Reading →

Malam-malam pria itu dikutuk oleh rindu, pada sebuah nama yg membuatnya pernah menertawakan sepi, Aubrey. Tidak lagi sering Aubrey menyambanginya dalam mimpi, samar ia mulai rupa, lekuk badan, dan rasa manis bibir wanita itu. Tapi Aubrey tidak pernah benar bisa pergi sejauh apapun dunia mengajaknya berlari. Susah payah ia mencoba ingat malam itu. Aubrey. Rambut... Continue Reading →